This year has definitely been one so far filled with a lot of ups and downs, people judging and not always having genuine intentions. You present your best self at all time but to them you’re not what they looking for. What does that even mean?
I have come across a lot of negative, condescending people in this industry (work specifically) who didn’t want my light to shine at all. Who I am and who I represent myself as, is not enough for them or what they ideally would like. To be honest I have come to terms with that and I will explain why further down. It is a shame that the ‘creative fashion industry’ doesn’t take to diversity as much as they say they do but I will not let that stop me, I may not be who they want but I am enough, I have something unique to offer just like anyone else.
I am talking about a few recent experiences this year that has concluded to the same thing such as points like this; the ‘ideal’ girl for this role or the ‘person’ we are looking for…When I heard phrases like this said me to me, I laughed inside because I do exactly what the opportunity and skill set requires but it’s not enough? What are they picturing that I am not giving you? What are they seeing that they feel is not the right fit? I have been told that my blog is a conflict of interest, with no explanation. I was told my outside of work activities was breeching my contract, which was helping a friend on her amazing event. Anything I did was an issue, they were always looking to highlight what they thought was wrong. It’s funny because I got advise from my mentor and other girl bosses in the industry who I would consult on any queries my worked flagged just to cross check if I was doing anything wrong or not and they would always reassure me, what I am doing is just fine.
My horrible experiences of not being accepted once made me question my ability and question my passion for a minute, crazy right! But I never stray too far from my truth and who Olivia Gold is, I know who I am and know what I have to offer and I will NEVER let anyone make me question myself again. If you don’t like me because I am not the right fit then so be it GOODBYE. Sometimes god opens your eyes and reveals the unexpected.
I know my worth and I know my purpose. I share this with you, as encouragement and a note to myself to never give up, we are all going through trials and it is not a race so don’t watch what others are doing. Focus on you and stay away from the noise, be still and let god guide you. Very soon, someone will appreciate ALL you have to offer.
Dress – Zara (Similar)
Shoes – YSL
Photography – Vinn
Olivia Gold x
